7) ON DEFECTS AND INFIRMITIES
Should we so far get off our guard, as again to wander among externals in search of happiness, or sink into dissipation, or commit a fault, we must instantly turn inward; for having departed thereby from our God, we should as soon as possible return unto Him, and patiently suffer whatever sensations He is pleased to impress: for He has declared, “As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten.” (45)
On the commission of a fault, it is of great importance to guard against vexation and disquietude, which spring from a secret root of pride, and a love of our own excellence; we are hurt by feeling what we are; and if we discourage ourselves, or despond, we are the more enfeebled; and from our reflections on the fault, a chagrin arises, which is often worse than the fault itself.
The truly humble soul is not surprised at its defects or failings; and the more miserable and wretched it beholds itself, the more does it abandon itself unto God, and press for nearer and more intimate alliance with Him, that it may avail itself of an eternal strength. We should the rather be induced to act thus, as He Himself hath said: “I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with Mine eye.” (46)
45) Revelations 3:19
46) Psalm 32:8